The Purpose of Support
It's Sunday evening, the California sun is setting in the window to my left, and I'm waiting for a veggie burger at a diner. My stomach rumbles slightly, overwhelmed from a day of travel, and subdued anxiety for the weeks to come. Tomorrow I start facilitating a two-week training, launch the topic of a conference for one organization, and finish one of our largest fundraisers for another, all filled with visibility, something I have grown weary and scared of.
My brand of justice is one filled with vulnerability and accountability, values I had thought were shared amongst all social justice warriors. Last year I learned otherwise, that sometimes those who WILL harm us most carry the same flags and chant the same slogans.
Many see me as a pillar of confidence and strengths, and the truth is, which in no way contradicts my confidence and strength is that I am also scared of opening myself up to the world and allowing it in through work that's seen by tens of thousands around the world. Thinking about this I thought about reaching out and found myself thinking "what's the point?" It will get done regardless of fear and anxiety. Tomorrow I will start the training, and everything else will move forward because it must, leading me to consider, is the purpose of support solely to empower us to do the work? If so, then being already motivated implies that support is not needed, that it's a waste of time.
I know that empowerment is NOT the only pillar of support. Having someone by your side as you walk on your journey goes beyond empowerment, it builds hope, validation, spirituality, a sense of belonging, and if all that is already there then sometimes it's just nice to have someone present.
So, I'm reaching out, taking others on this journey that'll happen with or without them, because at the end of the day as long as got me I'm golden, but why stop there? When I am fully connected and being, I am platinum, and I'm rising to greater heights every day.