At some point(s) in our lives, the weights carrying us falls away, and we slam down, into the ground, or into an infinite abyss. We fall, ropes, wires, chains, snapping, changing our momentum. But it's so slow, our entire world falling apart feels like aches and whisper, mosquito bites and things so small you'd never know anything is wrong. But we fall, and as we do, we finally see it. We see our fall from grace.
We fall from a place that society has taught us to believe is our grace. But our fall is actually our souls breaking free. Our souls tired from living under the oppressive weight of nations not built for us. We are tired of the systematic and individual oppression, from both the minority designers of society, and those they oppress. We are tired of the injustice, the trauma, the pain, the dis-empowerment by those with the best and the worst of intentions.
Most of all we are tired of oppressing ourselves. And falling, falling is our soul rising. As you fall parts of you you never knew existed are awakening. Your falling is a gateway to the freedom you never knew existed. Liberation that tears your heart from your body and connects it to the truth.
That's where you are, on the ground, rising at the intersection of love and belonging.
But society, sensing an abnormality within its system, will do everything in its power to return you or end you, not knowing that you, despite being so low, are one of the few things that can save it.
So that's where you are, at perhaps the most dangerous place you can be. But it's also the place where you can choose life, belonging, love and connection instead of everything society has chosen for you. There are many that will attempt to hijack your choices , and for that I'm sorry. You deserve the support to rise with your new found connectivity, but know, that despite everything beyond your control, deep within you, you have the support you need to rise for the first time. You are all you've ever needed. You are the one you've always been waiting for to save you.
Throughout my life I have risen far more than I ever thought possible. Every time I think my soul has awakened enough it urges me to rise even more. It urges me to belong, to seek health and wellness, and to achieve my hopes and dreams. For years though, I have fought the rising process. I bought into what society has taught me is weakness, and I begged the world to take pity on me because I could not do it. But just like in many places in the world, I have grown to celebrate my rise. My challenges are no longer hurdles, or setbacks, they are propellants to rising above the toxicity boiling within our society. They are kick starts to a better me, and a better life. But we are at different places in our journeys, not everyone will feel the way I do, and that's absolutely OK, the key is to remember that none of us get to decide how another takes their journey. They are ours, and ours alone.
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Ahmad Abojaradeh is the co-founder and Director of Mental Health for MCL, An Engineer, a world traveler, a Peer Support Specialist, a Novelist and the founder and editor of Life in My Days. He hopes to spread awareness of living a life of wellness wherever he is through his writing, workshops and speaker events.